There are a number of things that come up. First of all, there is gratitude. I have been feeling good lately. A feeling of relaxation flows through my system. A feeling of joy and gratitude. I feel like I can and may receive more. I am very good at experiencing certain feelings, but really receiving and allowing them can sometimes be a challenge. Especially when it comes to opening myself up completely to the world, to surrender. Because imagine… Then I am incredibly vulnerable? What if people hurt me? I would rather always shield myself from that. I did not want to be confronted with that, because pain means death. At least… That was a belief that was in my system. But not anymore… I recently had an insight and I was allowed to truly experience that pain does not exist. And let me keep this completely focused on myself. When I look at the absolute unity, there is no pain, there is only Being. There is only a large universal field of love in which I find myself.
🤗 I open myself to receive 🤗
In the life I live now there is the experience of pain, just as there is an experience of love, anger and sadness. They come and they go. So does pain. I see them more and more as direction indicators and I try more and more not to identify with these emotions. And as you can imagine, sometimes it goes fantastically and other times it completely sucks. They are only and only experiences that give me the feeling that I am alive. They give me the feeling that my Soul is happy about it or that it is not in line with who I am in essence. And I create all that myself. If I zoom out, it is only information that wants to tell me something or wants to teach me something.
🤷♂️ Why should I shield myself any longer? 🤷♂️
What is the point of not daring to receive fully and to be open to life if there is no pain and only love? What is the point of not daring to receive if life is only there to give me new experiences? If I ever die in this life, that does not mean that I disappear. I will only go back to where I came from, back to being one with the source. Back to the field of Universal Love. Now that doesn't sound so bad, does it? I would only be doing myself a disservice by not living life to the fullest. I would only regret that when I have passed away and look back on this life.
And does this mean that I can already fully receive and dare to be open? Partly yes, another part certainly not. It is a process and that goes with trial and error, like every process. Each time a puzzle piece that eventually completes the puzzle in combination with a growing awareness. And sometimes… sometimes you suddenly make a big leap, because a puzzle piece is created that connects you with many other puzzle pieces. Step by step on a journey while I focus on staying present in the here and now I type at 09:09.
Lobi for you guys! Aho 💚👽