Yesterday morning I was in Qumran. It is the place of the Essenes, where many wisdoms are stored and where the story goes that Yeshua was also trained there. Rogier decided to go to Masada National Park alone, but I felt so strongly that I still had to go to the caves of Qumran. Something in the place caught my attention. So I'll just follow that feeling..
I walk towards the mountains and the caves in them. And it seems as if gravity is pulling me closer and closer. There is a warning that you are not allowed to leave the path, but I go anyway. Closer and closer, from stone to stone. Along the way I stop a few times to let the energy work on me.
Once I reach the mountain I look for a place to sit down. With my back against the mountain. A feeling of “coming home” makes the tears start to flow. I am finally home and I have missed this place so much.
What follows is a deep process about letting go of the past. A past of suffering, pain and fear. I feel it coming up, but I decide to stay with it. Nothing to be afraid of, just let it flow. I am allowed to allow the light, so that this can leave my system.
I quickly feel that I am allowed to make a choice. Yeshua appears before me and I also see the cross passing by as a symbol. My third eye pulsates like crazy. At that moment the energetic purge comes. I start coughing and let go.
Life is a choice Brian a voice tells me. You can choose hell on earth or heaven on earth, take your pick. Of course I choose heaven on earth and at that moment it becomes quiet and I hear birds singing. It is as if the landscape changes immediately.
The energy of the moment tells me to go back to my heart again and again. When my thoughts go to darkness I notice that I immediately start purging again, but when I go back to my love and heart it stops immediately and becomes softer.
Again Yeshua appears before me and this time the message is “Go to the heart” “There lie all the answers you need on your journey” “You may now let go of the past”. I feel it flowing through me and I feel the power. It becomes bigger and bigger.
This will continue until I feel ready, ready to let go, ready to live and spread the light.
From that moment on, a guide also appears with the name “Taku”. At least that is how he makes himself known. I ask Taku and the ancestors of Qumran for their blessing to bring the teaching of Qumran back into the world. I ask them if they want to teach me in the coming period. And the answer is yes.
Once again, waves of gratitude are flowing through me. Life is magical. And we do indeed have a choice in how we look at the world, but one thing is for sure…
How we view the world is from an inner experience. The world is just the world. Everything is just what it is. How we view what is is up to us, not the world around us.
I feel that I am now ready to go back to the Netherlands. The intense processes of the past few days make me long for the warmth of Esther Geskus, Milo and Jaxx 
. I now feel tired, but definitely satisfied.
. I now feel tired, but definitely satisfied.So it's beautiful! I thank Israel/Palestine and all the spiritual guides and teachers here for all their teachings and I'm going to enjoy the sun and the beach in Tel Aviv for a while before we go back tomorrow.
Life is one big adventure and yes… that Heaven on Earth… we all have access to it, right here in the now.
Love,
Brian