My book was sent to the proofreaders yesterday!
How grateful I feel. It is a gift. Yesterday I managed to finish my very first book and sent it to the proofreaders. I feel that I am proud and that I may be proud. Proud that I have gone through this process. Proud that I have taken this on. Proud that I have dared to make myself completely vulnerable. And I am grateful! Grateful for all the help and guidance that I may receive with regard to the publication of “Het had gewoon anders kunnen endlopen”.
Here is a small excerpt from the introduction 
It got even worse. I had to sink a little deeper before I was allowed to enter my new life. More and more fear and panic in my system. Fortunately, I was a master in presenting myself to the outside world. I think that the average person would just think that I was very happy and joyful if he or she saw me. That mask was ideal. That mask was also necessary at the time. Otherwise I would never have come here. In my entire system I feel that I was allowed to experience this. Now it is time for the other side of the medallion. From fear to love. That is the journey that I have made. To find all the answers within yourself instead of always looking for them in the outside world. Inwardly focused. Daring to look at yourself completely and standing up for who you really are. Regardless of what others think about it. It is a journey of discovering what self-love is, what integrity is, of what magic actually exists in life. With this story it is time to take off the mask completely. And that is exciting, because that means that I am going to expose myself completely. Also to family, friends and others who are close to me. That means being vulnerable and daring to be. With confidence that this contributes to my own healing process and if I can help others with it, that is only a bonus. I promise you that I will expose myself completely. Even if it was not so nice. Because I know that I am no longer that person and that it were protectors and mechanisms in my system that caused that behavior. Which I take full responsibility for, by the way.
It Could Have Ended Differently is the story of a boy who completely lost himself in partying, escapism, relationships, work, friends and girlfriends. I lived a life in which I was miserable inside, but I didn't show it to the outside world. I lived a double life. This is a story that summarizes the first twenty-eight years of my life. A story that has led to a life full of love and trust. A new life full of humor, connection and where I am completely ready for it. Ready to live. Ready to play. Ready to walk my path. Ready to embody my soul mission in its entirety. Ready to take on everything that comes my way. Nice or less nice. I now believe that everything happens for a reason. So do the lessons that I still have to learn. In the second part: the transformation journey of It Could Have Ended Differently I give you the 31 secrets for a free and authentic life, so that you too can create your most beautiful authentic self. I would like to tell you in advance that this is not a magic module. I am not going to sell you a fairy tale, but I do want to take you through events and methods that have contributed to creating my authentic self. That have contributed to completely turning my life around. Apart from the fact that life is full of magic, you should be allowed to do it yourself. We are all the creators of our own lives and therefore fully responsible for how we shape and approach our lives. Ownership!
I look forward to sharing the whole story with the world soon.
