A storm raging inside. That's how I've felt the past few days. Pain, unrest, mortal fear. It all came along. And I know the pain. Deep inside I know what I have to do. What my mission is. That I may do things differently than the world and the majority of the population are used to. And I also know that this is sometimes discussed from different angles. And that's okay. I understand it too. It teaches me compassion. I have my truth and others have their truth. And neither is the only truth. They are all truth.
Deep inside I feel and know that it can be different. Inside me is a rebel who has fought against everything and everyone for a long time. I always went against the rules. I don't give a damn about the rules even. And I still recognize that sometimes, but now there is awareness and that already causes a big change.
🤗 What would love do? 🤗
Yesterday I also pulled the rebel from the tarot card deck of Osho. And there I read something that really resonated and in which I fully recognize myself. I am also a rebel, but not from a struggle anymore. I am here to show that it can be different and that it may be different. I will copy a piece here:
The rebel is clearly the master of his own destiny. Whether he is wealthy or poor, the Rebel is really an emperor because he has broken the chains of society's repressive conditioning and opinions. He has formed himself by embracing all the colors of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky. His very way of being is rebellious. Not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he had discovered his own true nature and is detormined to live in accordance with is.
And somewhere it is scary to embrace the rebel, because it triggers fear of failure and fear of rejection. And because I have to let go of all control. We are so used to doing it according to all kinds of rules. All because it is seen as “normal and logical” by a large part of society. I even see this happening in the spiritual world. And I think that is such a shame. As far as I am concerned, all those rules can go. There is only one rule that really matters to me and that is follow love. What would love do?
That's all it takes. Ask yourself that question with everything you do. What would love do? What would love do in this situation? Even if the answer is to not do something. Listen to love.
The transition we are in is not to fill our egos. We do this for each other, for the collective, for Mother Earth. Do you really think Mother Earth cares how many educations you have done? How long you have been in a certain work environment? How long you have been awake? I don't think so. I know for sure that it doesn't.
She just wants your love. Your purity. Your being. And preferably in a wonderfully open and playful way.
I will embrace the rebel in me. No longer from struggle, but from love. And when I encounter struggle, I go within, heal myself and transmute the struggle into feelings of peace!
Aho 🧘💛