Today I walked the path that Yeshua walked towards his crucifixion and I came to the location of this photo. All day I had been seeing images of Yeshua walking with the cross in front of me so I knew I had something to do, but as always… I didn't see this coming.
I don't really know what to write because two hours later I'm still shaking and feeling very emotional. But I feel that I want to write something and share this with you. Exactly, because I feel resistance, but also know that this is part of my message of change. My head says no, my heart says yes.
During the walk I saw an image of Yeshua passing by several times, pointing to his heart.
Everything you need is there Brian, I hear a voice tell me. During the walk I already feel emotions rising and it is pouring down from the sky. But I have to follow this path now…
After the walk of the crucifixion we arrive at “The church of the holy sepulcher”. The story goes that Yeshua was crucified here. Of course it is full of tourists.
But something tells me to go further, away from all the tourists. And then we arrive at the place of the photo. In silence, without tourists.
Something happened to me today in this place.
As I entered I heard a voice in my head telling me “This is the place Brian” and I felt goosebumps all over my body.
I feel in my whole body that this place is magical. This is a place of being born again, dying and coming back to life. Being born again in the light.
And I see an image of myself appearing that I may sit down on my knees in the middle of the room. Of course my head has something to say about that, but I decide to do it anyway.
So I am down on my knees… in the middle of the room.
The moment I sit down on my knees, an energy goes through me. My body starts to shake. I start to yawn extensively.
Energy is released, but a lot is also coming in. I feel so much light, love and serenity coming in. I don't know what is happening in the moment, but I allow it. I let it work through me, because I feel and know deeply that this is in harmony with the path I am walking.
The next image flashes through my mind that I am allowed to stand up, but as soon as I lift one leg I am nailed to the ground. This causes me to take a position, like a knight kneeling on one knee and making a kind of humble bow. I try to stand up further, but that does not work. So I decide to surrender to the moment.
Another beam of light comes through me. I start shaking again and yawn even more. Even though I find it a bit scary, because I have no control over the situation at all, I still allow it to happen.
Then I hear the same voice again “rise up” and I stand up. I start shaking even more and I see myself taking an open stance with open hands.
At the same time I feel so much energy (light) in my heart and I take the open attitude. Even if my head has something to say about it.
Then I feel that the process has been completed. I stand there shaking in amazement. And someone comes walking down. As we leave this sacred space, a large group arrives. Wow.. It was meant to be that we were alone here during this process.
We move towards the exit and see all the gold and the frills (as Rogier called it). And I feel like that's not what it's about. It's not important at all. Not at all.
The only thing that is important (to me), is the connection with the (enlightened) Heart. To live from there. In Trust and in Surrender.
I feel full of wonder at this moment. How special life is. I feel so grateful. And I feel so strongly that I may listen to the voice that often tells me what I may do, the same voice that in the silence of meditation told me to go to Jerusalem.
I am carried, we are carried.
It is time to remember who we are and break free from the indoctrination of the past two thousand years.
Tomorrow we are going to Qumran, the place of the Essenes. Where the story goes that Yeshua was trained as a healer (and who knows what else). Actually the plan was to go the day after tomorrow, but I “accidentally” clicked on tomorrow when booking an overnight stay. So yeah… It must be the intention and after my experience this afternoon I know for sure that it is the intention!
Love,
Brian