Next Tuesday my five-day Vipassana Retreat starts. I'm looking forward to it. Into the silence. Lovely to go within. I've been getting signals for a while now that I should go within more. I even feel emotions coming up as I type this. Emotions of sadness and emotions of gratitude. It's time to go within. To integrate the processes of the past year and a half more deeply. To discover and reopen the book of Wisdom within myself. To come home to myself. To dare to be myself. And to be allowed to be myself. To completely shut off Social Media, my phone and the home environment. Only the connection between myself, my body and my inner world. I am rediscovering the connection as a man with my body. Daring to feel my sexual connection more deeply again, because I have recently discovered that there is still some trauma there. That is where I can heal the wounds. Sometimes that is painful, but I also know that part of my power is stored there. In the sexual energy. I think it is time for a Tantra course.
Since I've been back in the Netherlands it's been a bit of a rollercoaster. A super fun rollercoaster though. Combinations of workshops, trainings, giving and receiving sessions, attending the Mystery School and the closing at Bridgeman. It really is a transition. A transition. That happens in the outside world, but in my inner world I also feel all sorts of shifts. I feel an ever deeper connection with the Spiritual World developing. It becomes clearer and more powerful.
Everything flows
Suddenly, all kinds of clients come my way for which I am super grateful. Unexpected gifts come my way. Everything we facilitate with The Movement flows super smoothly. Aim your Arrow with my sweetheart flows fantastically. And then I have all kinds of ideas to start flowing and creating online. Online Trainings, recording Meditations etc. My creativity is increasing by the day. Just like my Power. Abundance is increasing in all areas of my life. Life brings miracles when you make the decision to do what you came here on earth to do. That is really pure magic.
Lately I have also been manifesting a lot. Daily affirmations and tuning in to what I would like to see in my life. And everything I ask for comes. I have gotten into the flow. And at this moment I am experiencing the art of receiving and giving.
Only sometimes I ask a bit too much. Suddenly too much comes my way and I get upset. Like last Saturday when my body suddenly indicated: Now it's enough for a while. It's time for self-care. What I have learned and been able to listen to. A development in self-love. Now I just have to learn to recognize it earlier. Because I like a lot of things in my field. I can then go all in on that. And that can also be a pitfall. Maybe you recognize it. Wanting to say yes to everything you like, because it fuels your inner flame. Only to find out that your entire agenda is fully planned again. Learning to set priorities and create balance. The engine is running. My confidence is growing. I feel more carried by the day. That now gives me the feeling that I can plan more moments of rest and slow down.
So how happy am I that I can enter the silence next week? Very happy! Because since my awakening in February 2020 I immediately received signals that I can enter the silence. Meditate a lot. Integrate and embody the knowledge that is stored in me with patience.
So that's what I'm going to do. Create balance. Find balance. Restore balance and then make sure that balance remains. And what does that balance look like for me? At the moment, this looks like a combination of facilitating sessions and workshops, self-development, rest, meditation, sports, reading and playing. That's what the coming period may look like for me. Where I also make time and space to connect more with nature. Where I have time and space to flow creatively and work on manifestation.
For example, I am manifesting a camper, so that I can always travel freely. So that I can go and stand where I want and at the same time have a place to live. A tiny house in the woods is also on my manifesting list, so that I always have a place to retreat to when I feel that I can be alone and enter the silence/peace.
For now… Have a great weekend everyone! The world is magical.
Ah