I feel that my Masculine Energy is healing. This morning I already posted a photo that the Divine Masculine is returning. That feels powerful and at the same time I feel more and more love flowing. I can experience more and more compassion for others and that is only possible because I can show more compassion for myself. As it also works. From the inside out. Last Sunday I was also allowed to experience a beautiful process in this during the Mystery School. I wrote a piece about this immediately after the experiences. I want to share it with you in all vulnerability, because I feel that it may be shared. I do not want to speak for all men, but what I see around me is that being vulnerable towards other men can be difficult. The same applies to daring to connect with men. I would like to take you with me now in my journaling from last Sunday.
Helen in the open arms of the mother
My male side feels tormented. It feels like it shouldn't be there. The anger. The sadness on that side. It feels dangerous. Then the female side feels safer and softer. While I want to see the tormented man in me and heal him. Whatever he did in other times. After all, these are different times now and I am no longer who I was. I can now safely feel my anger. And it is safe to start using my power. I am love. And I may use my power to spread my love. To heal the world. No longer act from destruction. I have now learned those lessons. I may now heal from lightness and softness. To stand up for who I am and what I stand for.
In the open arms of the mother I may shine. There I may draw wisdom from and then share it with the world. I may enter nature and come home again. Become one with the earth. Connect with her fruits and then share those fruits with the inhabitants who may make use of all her love. That is where my strength lies. In the peace and quiet. That is where I am at home. I am ready for it. My whole being is ready for it. Ready to spread the light. To do that, I only have to follow nature and all the signposts.
I will always have enough, because I think I am good enough. That makes me pause. That is the key. That is where I am allowed to be. That is where I have to do it.
What is the difference between strength and anger😡
Somewhere I think I don't quite know and feel the difference between strength and anger. That's interesting.
The energy did take me there just now. I was allowed to experience the above. I was allowed to really follow. The energy leads and flows. I could also beautifully feel and embody the anger and frustration. And then the power. I can't explain it in words yet. I just experienced it and spirit guided me in this. The love and light from my heart flowed into the room. Spirit is really teaching. The energy is really teaching. Not just me, but everyone. That is so incredibly beautiful. And I felt so safe and powerful to embody the anger in its entirety. So beautiful. Just to feel it completely. As if the room was shaking because of my power. How powerful. With this power I can accomplish anything. Really anything. Spirit also told me that I first had to embody the anger completely, because I wanted to put light into it right away. However, I was first allowed to see that it is safe to feel anger. It really is safe.
This has given me so much. For the first time in years I dare to allow the emotion of anger again. I dare to feel it. I no longer have to suppress it, because I am afraid of hurting others with it. That is a thing of the past. Through this insight I feel the strength in my husband increase, while I remain in the softness and warmth of the feminine energy of the mother.
Aho 🌿