Yesterday morning during yoga I was suddenly able to connect my hands behind my back. When I arrived here three months ago that was really not possible. It looked more like the left of the photo. I was therefore amazed that this suddenly worked. It did give me a moment of realization that yoga is indeed good for me. Not only for my health, but also for the flexibility of my muscles. In addition, I also notice that the daily yoga exercises ensure that I can stay in meditation position for longer. It feels genuinely good and my body also feels better and better. I can therefore recommend everyone to practice yoga daily. Even if it is only a few exercises per day.
Want to escape…
Yesterday morning I also had a healing session planned online with Sandra. In that session I was sent to old family pain. Fear of pain and death. Wanting to flee. Back to the Second World War that my grandparents had experienced. I had heard that the next generations could carry the pain of that time with them, but I had not expected that it would also affect me. From there, however, I was sent to the piece of powerlessness. Powerlessness that felt like sabotage. And now I am going to see how I can tell this, so that it is understandable. That feeling of powerlessness was caused by agreements with an entity from a previous life. Agreements that were made on the basis of fear. Agreements that were not made from my true essence. And that entity, in this case a grey, really did everything to make me keep that agreement. They feed on pain and fear and really did not want to leave. Eventually, with the help of spiritual intelligence, we were able to stop the influence of the grey. I was able to say goodbye to it. And that feels good, because it makes room for beautiful powerful loving energy. I had also written out the details of the session here first, but something inside me said that this was not necessary. It is not necessary and it would cause confusion rather than clarity. That is why I removed it. It does feel okay to share it with those who are interested or also have special experiences. So please send a private message if you want to know more.
Dealing with pain and pleasure stimuli
This morning when I woke up I was in a child part that did not want to take responsibility. I also noticed that the commitment to go to meditation and yoga in the morning was gone for a while, while I know how good it is for me and how important it is. I also see it as a very important part of the daily practice. Only this morning I stayed in bed. Normally I don't read my whatsapp messages before the morning meditation and yoga here at 06:30. And I did this morning. There I saw a message from Robert that he had been working on his book until late at night and that we could therefore do the morning practices ourselves. And that child part in me thought, great, then I can stay in bed for another hour. At that moment I only thought about the moment of having a good night's sleep. Now I feel that as a bit of a failure, but also a bit proud. Not proud that I missed the morning meditation and yoga, but proud that I recognize that part and dared to share it publicly in the group without making excuses for oversleeping. Proud that there is a chance that I will recognize that part right away next time. And even then it is possible to give in to it or not. Only then is it visible. And what I also realize here is that making mistakes is okay and that it is okay to fail for a while, like this morning. However, it is important to be honest with yourself here. Further growth also starts with being honest with yourself.